There’s been lots of things happening around here that I could write about. We put another box on the beehive. The apple trees bloomed and are now (I think) actually making apples. We planted some tomatoes, peppers, and yellow squash in some very large pots. The list goes on.
But I haven’t been able to bring myself to write about any of that.
I can’t get past the all-consuming anger I feel watching the dismantling of our country.
Even now I find it difficult to write this because I know in my bones that the Cheetos-colored, sociopathic, criminal, pussy-grabbing, “moved on her like a bitch”, conman that currently occupies the White House is just a symptom of a larger problem.
That problem is that 1/3 of this country is so petty, so willfully ignorant, so full of imagined butthurt because they had to hold in the “N” word for eight years that they are willing to trade our national security, to take children away from their parents and put them in cages, to watch our relationships with our longest and firmest allies be destroyed just so they can “own the libtards.”
It makes me want to vomit.
The absolute worst part about all of it, ALL OF IT, is watching so many people that I know, and care for, and love exhibit the cultish behavior required to support this corpulent mass of human feces.
No, actually that’s not the worst part. The worst part is knowing that there will come a time in the near future when I will have to draw a line. I’m afraid that day will cost me.
So I don’t write. Because everything that I would write would end here at this place of dark, dark anger anyway.
I remember when I was a junior in high school in Graham, Texas. An army recruiter came to school and gave a rah-rah be an army of one presentation. There was a lot of bullshit in that speech but there was one thing that was cold, hard truth. At one point he said, “One day the United States of America will cease to exist.” And he was correct. One day, sometime in the future, the U.S. will cease to exist. It will cease to exist the minute a majority of its citizens stop believing that laws have meaning. It will cease to exist the second a majority of its citizens are willing to tolerate the dehumanization of other people, citizen or not. Already the United States is not the same country it was two years ago because enough of its citizens have decided to trade integrity for revenge.
Know this, I love you all and wish none of you ill but I am not sorry if I’ve offended you.